My Journey to Breath.

I could understand my emotions — but I couldn’t actually feel them.

I’ve always seen myself as a pretty self-aware person. I’ve spent years in self-discovery, reflecting, trying to understand how I think and why I feel the way I do.

But despite all of that, I felt stuck.

I had no problem analysing myself. I could explain my patterns, my fears, my behaviours.
But when it came to actually feeling my emotions—there was a block.

Loneliness was a big one. Alongside a persistent fear of not finding love. Most days, I’d catch myself at least once thinking: “How am I actually going to meet someone?

My solution at the time was to go deeper into my head. Podcasts, books, conversations—anything around spirituality and self-awareness I thought if I could just understand myself—and life—well enough, I’d finally feel at peace.

And while it helped.. it never quite felt like enough.

Back in 2022, a friend invited me to a conscious connected breathwork session. I went in open-minded, but without high expectations.

What I experienced surprised me.

There were moments of sadness, empathy, even love.

I could feel something building—like I was on the edge of a deeper emotional release.

But I couldn’t quite break through.

I went to a few more sessions after that, but never quite reached that same intensity again. So, I drifted away from it.

Not long after, I found myself in a relationship. There was a lot that was genuinely beautiful about it. But to be totally honest, part of me always knew it wasn’t going to last.

And when it ended, it hit hard.

A lot of emotion came up all at once. Emotions I hadn’t really allowed myself to feel before.

But luckily I knew what to turn to.

I came back to breathwork. And this time, it really connected.

The emotional shifts I experienced were exactly what I needed.
They allowed me - someone who had spent years in his head - to finally actually drop into my body and feel.

To feel sadness without resisting it.
To let things move through me instead of analysing them.

And in doing so, I was able to move forward through the breakup.

Today, as a single 29-year-old, I still experience moments of loneliness. I still hold fear about what the future might look like.

Those feelings haven't completely disappeared.

But, I can safely say that breathwork has changed my relationship to those feelings.

And it's become an anchor.
Something that brings me back to myself.

It helps me feel more at peace being alone, even while still desiring connection.

And just as importantly, it’s helping me make better decisions.

Not choosing from fear.
Not rushing into something just to fill a void.

But to be intentional about who I let into my life.

Breathwork didn’t remove my desire for love.

It just stopped that desire from controlling me.